Me: Yes, of course I do! I love him!
God: Remember the story he tells about the donkey?
Me: I do... (here, for those who don't know, I'll post the video of it for you)
God: Well, YOU are like that donkey.
Me: Umm...thanks God. Should I be saying I'm sorry?
God: You are like that donkey...but you should think about the rest of that story...the beginning part. You see, the donkey was all tied up in the service of its owners right? But then when it was time for it to be used for its big purpose, the disciples just had to go and untie it and tell them that the Master had use of it. Your Master has use for you.
Me: Oh. Oh! Wow...that's really awesome God! So...now what do I do? Hello? (He hasn't told me the rest yet...)
So there we have it friends...God called me a donkey first thing this morning. And I love it! So now for the explanation behind my conversation with God. As many of you know, I am working as part of the ministry with Eagle Rock Church and Warring Dove International Ministries here in Lawrence, KS. The ministry stuff keeps all of us pretty busy much of the time. I love it and I have learned SO much about God and His kingdom and His purposes! In order to be funded, I have been working at CLO (Community Living Opportunities) here in Lawrence as a central site monitor. This basically means that I sit in an office and watch monitors of cameras in some of the homes that they oversee. CLO is an organization that takes care of developmentally disabled men and women. I watch in some of their homes with the higher functioning people and the cameras are only in the common areas of the home. Our goal is to allow them to be without constant staff intervention while still maintaining a safe environment.
Anyway, I have been working for CLO since July and God had started telling me early on that I needed to not get comfortable there because I wouldn't be there very long. He has been speaking to me about timing recently and I've been thinking "Whoa, God...I am ok with this, but You are going to have to show me what it looks like to do it. I really do have a need to be funded and I don't know how to do that without having a job." Then at the very end of the year, my car decided that it is going to begin dying a slow death. Oh, it still works right now, but honestly, it's in really bad shape. It's not really the safest place for me to be while driving down the road and the issues that it has would cost more to fix than the car is actually worth. So basically, I'm in desperate need of a "new-to-me" car. So again I have been asking, "God...what does it look like for me to not work and to be funded...because now I have to have a new car too and there's no money for any of this!?!?!?!?!"
So that brings me to this morning. I really believe that as we in the ministry prepare to launch the Mane Event Tour, I need to be available to travel as much as is needed and be in the church/ministry office when I am not traveling. I need to be able to be focused on the tasks that God has set before me. So I was praying about it this morning and God decides to tell me I'm like the donkey that carried Jesus, the Glory, in...and the Master has use of me.
I don't know what that means, exactly. I don't know how He is going to make it work. But I am open and waiting for Him to do what He does best...whatever He desires!
My friends, I ask that you be in prayer for me as I continue to seek God's heart for what He desires of me in this time.
Thanks for reading! Love to you all.
Tami
